Yeahh

Well tomorrow I was supposed to be going to six flags. It would have been fun but I have an event to go to and I promised people I would go, so I am. Plus It was a friends post birthday event and he invited me. I known about it for like a month and I the woman for the event called me a little later than that, but I don't want to turn someone down, just because of that. *Sigh* Still would have been nice though. Anyways. I emailed more people for stories. Point sheets being collected guys!!!. I have to review the questions, so I don't look stupid up there. Hopefully all turns out well.

--Tammy Ram is over & out.

DEFINITELY A RECESSION

IT'S DEFINITELY A RECESSION GOING ON. I'M BROKER THAN BROKE RIGHT NOW AND THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING OF MY BROKENESS AND THIS REALLY SUCKS MAJOR A-DOUBLE SNAKES. LMAO. BETWEEN PROM, GRADUATION, SENIOR EXPENSES, AND COLLEGE I'M ABOUT TO KILL MYSELF. BEING A SENIOR REALLY IS BEGINNING TO SUCK. YOU SLOWLY REALIZE THAT YOUR GETTING OLDER AND OLDER THEN AFTER THAT YOU GET PUT INTO SO MUCH DEBT ALWAYS HAVING TO PAY FOR STUFF THAT IT CROSSES OUT EVERYTHING ELSE THAT'S FUN ABOUT BEING A SENIOR AHHHHH MAN! I STILL REMEMBER FRESHMAN YEAR LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY. THINKING ABOUT MY HIGH SCHOOL MEMORIES I THINK THE END OF SOPHOMORE YEAR AND JUNIOR YEAR WERE THE BEST YEARS AND THE BEST OF TIMES FOR ME. BUT ANYWAY BACK TO THE PRESENT TIME...PROM IS RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER IM SCARED. IT BETTER BE NICE ALL THIS MONEY I HAD TO SPEND. SMH. I GOT MY DRESS AND SHOES NEXT STOP IS MY HAIR. I HAVE AN IDEA AND SOME PICTURES OF WHAT I WANT TO DO TO IT BUT I STILL DON'T KNOW OR HAVE A FINAL DECISION YET...I STILL HAVE A LITTLE BIT OF TIME AT LEAST. ANYWAY I HAVE TO GO RETYPE AND REDO AKA EDIT MY STORY SO SMOOCHIES LOL.

Prom is coming up!

June 3rd would be the big day when i get to party and have fun with my friends. I can't wait specially because this means that there would be less days to attend school and that soon ill be out of high school. So i got my prom dress but i think i am getting some other heels because i want white ones. i also need to get a type of crown thing so i could attach my girl with. Idk if i should go to an after party or maybe go to dinner with my friends. But i think i am to do that for graduation so i should just go to an after party but maybe ill be too tired to do it. Cant wait till prom and hope that everyone has fun.! :D

Moneyy!!!!!!

Omg when I got home I found out that I got $2000 from my godfather. You know how happy Iwas?. I'm getting more after graduation from him...Its almost over. Those four long yet short years are almost to an end. I can't believe it. Wow. I presented my project. I was nervous, but those public speaking classes helped lol. I made rice balls. Its sticky japanese rice made into a ball wrapped with seaweed. anyways... I have to go to a panel this saturday at hunter college. Hope it turns out ok. A woman also emailed me back for a story. artHarlem is the name of the org. I got this really cute bag at H&M. love it already. Also got some capris. Also cute.

--Tammy Ram is over & out

Dis weekend

This last week has been good and bad memorial day weekend was the best i got dumb drunk with my besties all of them it was crazy then we went to a party with the Murdock boys it was wacko because we was the only girls there so we was the party smh. After the party we ended up at Michelle house idk how. We didn't get home until the next morning around 10 ma moms was piss smh lmao. I didn't get to the Bronx until 5pm on Monday.

Tuesday was my "Senior Trip" (even tho I'm not finish until next year) we went to some camp were upstate it was fun.We had to get over our fear of heights since most of us are scared of heights. They broke us up into 7 groups were we had to compete against each other but it really wasn't a competition.We had to climb 30 feet in the air and either jump off and hit the ball or walk on a rope or a log it was fun. But nothing compares to the bus ride it was fun.

Wednesday was OK i stayed home because i was sick throwing up and all ....i Had no 1 to take care of me ma bf was MIA,ma bro swore i had swine and Q was not coming to the Bronx

Today had to be the worse day of the week i HATE DUMB FEMALES who don't know how to fall back and leave me be.Like ahhhh She's annoying like I want to go back to the way i was b4 n break her face but I'm older and more mature so i got to relax but she's taking to the point we the whole team in now involve....so its out of my hands 

The people here is very outgoing and laid back. Today which is my first day I walked over here with my friend Branday, so it was easy to get here. this place seems very roomy. 

My day in school was okay. Im very sick today so i dont feel good. I have a fever, cold and a migrane.

I cant wait to start reporting because it would be very fun and i will get to learn many new skills for the future.

Back to Hl but still sick !!!

So i went to school on Friday and i was  really really cold and felt like i was  dying from a  fever that later on i found out was 109. When i got home about 1130 i went right to bed and my mother  gave me some soup so i could take  some pills for my pain and for my fever. That day i took 4 cold showers so my fever could go down. So around like 11 in the night my fever went down and i was feeling much better.  I was  sick the whole weekend and didnt really go out. SUCKS ! b/c it was really nice outside. Then on Tuesday when i was  getting to go to school i got this really bad stomach ache and didnt go to school. Finally today i was feeling much better then went to skool and then came  to Hl. I am kind of  glad that i am feeling better now because it sucks been sick specailly  when school is  about to be  over...

Onigiri

Hello everyone. Its been a few days. I hope everyone enjoyed their long weekend. I know I did. I stayed up, pulling all-nighters, playing resident evil 4. It was great. I did not feel like going outside. It was hot outside, plus I got lazy. My house was burning like crazy. It was horrible. I was sweating a lot. Stupid broken AC. My dress fit well, just needed to get it hemmed up because It was a little too long. I can't wit for prom. Exactly one more week. Speaking of that, my Ap teacher is being a real bi*** about a project thats due the day of prom. Can't turn it in late, and its worth 100 points. That same day, we have group work we need to do, and If we are absent, we lose points for the day. Smh. Whatever Im still not going. I'm just gonna turn it in early. My godfather gave me some $$, and That will really help for the 3rd. I also made a rice ball yesterday. Its Onigiri. It was yummy. Im not a fan on sardines, but that really was good. It was a little too salty, since the seaweed its wrapped in is salted. I can just wrap the rice in the seaweed so I won' t get that much of a headache. I have to teach how to make those to my Ap class tomorrow. I hope they like it. I don't want to waste my time making a lot of rice and bringing a lot of containers for the stuff. Heres what they look like. Bye.
Tammy Ram is over & out.

Weekend!!

OMG this weekend was so cool because it was long and i had time to sleep. Also i had time to spend with my family that i have not seen in many days. Also my headphones broke this weekend i i was soo mad because i cant live without my music,literally my whole day will ruin if i dont listen to music. i also cannot ride the train whithout my music on because i hate to hear people talking,it just drives me crazy. Afterall my weekend was cool, i went out for dinner, i chill with my friends and best of all i was not in school and i was sleeping during the day and OUT during night!!

Bye bye

Terrible..not so sweet 16

Ok, so Seli can even vouch for this. I was asking everyone where I could buy a dress for a sweet 16. My friend (who I'll keep anonymous) had a sweet 16. She invited me, so I vowed to go. I spent 125 dollars on a dress and bought her a $50 giftcard and flowers. It was terrible! It was 30 people there in total, not 30 kids. On top of that, the food was awful. They served rice and baked ziti. That doesn't even go together. I was STARVING. I went to the chinese restaurant to buy chicken to go with the rice. I was so disappointed.  Some swetet 16...how bout terrible.....

WHY I GIVE A SH**???

I no today was crazy i love my life i love me not in a conceded way but it has been and still is a struggle for me to truly look in the mirror and like what i see. I wouldn't wish my life on anyone the things that I have to do and deal with but I'm the ultimate optimise. I love life, and I do appreciate the fact that God allows me to wake up every day. I'm not perfect I no that, I'm probably more flawed than most but I love deeper, harder, stronger, than anyone in my vicinity. I try and give my all to whomever needs it. I try to be as honest as i can be. I would, and do give my last for whomever needs me. Yes I know that I'm a character, I know am an inconceivable energy, but as long as I'm here I'm here to give people that extra that they need. So if someone needs a hole lot i can cover them, or if someone just needs a touch i got it. I will always hope people will become unified stop fighting, and love each other. I truly know what the hippie where really about Peace Love and Harmony.

Last Couple of Weeks!

Had great Memorial Day Weekend, Dancing, Dancing, and then more Dancing (and some biking) but mostly that's all i did this weekend. Eat, Sleep, Shower, Dance, Bike, Read, Watch TV!

Well, IN couple weeks, HL will be in the good hands of Selly and some of the other alums. Just ask that folks keep the place clean, take care of the equipment, water the plants, and don't hurt the books and bikes. :) All in all, not gone that long. I'll be 'around' maybe to go on stories with folks or sneak in on off hours to log the videos or do the biking. Plan to come back in mid October if there's still a position open :)

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Fleet Week

This week  is fleet week...We went on a POS downtown to where the ships came in it was so many soldiers down there it was crazy and they were all cute!!!!!!!! Shaking My Head i went with my bestiie Dee and Louis and Rich..it was fun we made it fun lol ...today was no fun besides the POS i stayed home and did laundry all day and watched movies so i basically relaxed 

week 3 or 4 cant even remember so many things are going on that my mind is having trouble keeping everything in order. between school and my two jobs my life has become what i never thought it would i found myself eating a five dollar slice of cake in the city and i quickly went to thinking i was just a kid wanting to be an other street thug and look at me now eating a five dollar slice o cake and reading malcome X

They Ripped Up My Shoes!!!

Peanut and Max ripped up my flats. Max started last night and Peanut finished this morning. Selly called me over this morning and said ''I have some bad news for you.'' At that point I was completely nervous because i had no clue what was going on. When I finally got there she told me the terrible news. My first emotion was extremely mad because those were my only black flat that actually still fit me. Soon after I remembered that Selly was going to bring me to a store on Saturday that was called Brooklyn Kids so I would make her buy me some new better flats.

crazy weeks ahead

this past week has been coco bananas i got a showcase on the 29 that I'm managing it. Its really hard to produce it when everyone is not on point. A lot of things going on the showcase is going to be popping O.d hood stars all round the building lol.But i got a week to get everything together.We had to make a new team the other day so now I'm the 1st lady of team knockout we hosting our first party in July. Today we did a POS on summer plans it was OK i enjoyed the second part of it. I'm really sleepy like i cant wait till I get home I'm going straight to bed. 

Weather

I'm sitting here trying to find something to do. Laredo and me are the only people here. Richard took Charisma, Kendra and some newbie on a story. Seli stepped out and I'm BORED! The weather is great though.

ALL SUMMERED & H&M-ed OUT

I'm summered and H&M-ed out over here in my new brown dressy shorts, a white button down shirt both from H&M and my brown coach sandals. Hair down, side bangs, I'm doing it up out here. I think I put my outfit together well. After being up all night trying to find something to wear. Smh. But anyway I'm happy I wound up really liking my look as well as everybody else.

The weather is so nice today. To me it's not so hot and humid. Like it's hot but its the kind of hot that feels good and not make you angry. Lol. I got to HL first like always. Smh. Everytime I get here I be so bored it doesn't make any sense. It doesn't be anyone here for me to talk to or bother...It just be mad quiet. Smh. Only thing you hear is the sound of birds chirping, nature, and other random sounds like the fan. Smh. I think I'm going to go crazy.

People don't be coming til mad late so I guess I'll be semi-bored til then. Anyway, I need to get back into the swing of things maybe the new month of June can be like a fresh start for me and I can start off everything brand new. Urggggg. HarlemLive. This opportunity can either make or break you. I have to take advantage of it as much as I can. I think my whole thing is that I'm not completely focused nowadays for my own personal reasons and I don't know when I'm going to snap out of it. Ummmmm idk but like i said by June it'll definitely be a new start even if I have to kill myself trying to pull back out that focus, determination, and drive within me.

WHAT A DAY

TODAY WAS A OK DAY I HAD GOT SOME GOOD ONE ON ONE WITH MATT ABOUT MY UP COMING STORY ON SOME THING GREAT. I DON'T WANT TO SAY UNTIL I AM REALLY GOING TO GET THE INTERVIEW WITH THE PEOPLE . BUT ALL I KNOW IS THAT IT IS GOING TO BE BIG. IT IS GOING TO BE MY BIGGEST STORY SO FAR. BUT OTHER THAN THAT I HAVE BEEN DOING GOOD IN SCHOOL I GOT TO KEEP MY GRANDS UP YOU KNOW HOW THAT IS. I ALSO CAN NOT WAIT FOR THE END OF TH SUMMER I WILL BE GOING TO OHIO AND I WILL HAVE MAD FUN WHEN I'M THERE. I'M GOING TO BE VISITING MY BEST FRIENDS AND SOME OF MY FAMILY AND MOST IMPORTANTLY MY LITTLE BROTHERS. MY BROTHERS ARE MY LIFE AND MY WORLD.

Today was a great day except when i got the news that i am been suspended from HL. =(

So I guess i dont do much at Hl. Today my day was great until Richard told me about the news, but i think i do more them most people here. It may seem like i dont but editing a video its not as easy as others think. In the other hand we only have 2 people who could actually edit and com to Hl. Ats Branday and I. We also have Stanley but he doesnt really come to HL anymore. I think that maybe i should get a rest and leave Hl for a bit. I am tire of coming to Hl and finding a mess in the video room and sometimes i get blamed for that. I tried to do my best and tell people to the the intro's and outro's but if i am not here then people just forget about and and dont do it. Well atleast i had fun at Hl and learned a lot of things that would be helpful in the future. Good Bye Everybody !! :)

my first story

my first story was published today. It'll be posted on the website tomorrow. Im so excited about this accomplishment. 

MArigolds && ShaKespeare

Today I feel so much better than yesterday. I've been reading Shakespeare in school and it's soo good. I've been reading Shakespeare since I was in 9th grade and I love dissecting his literature. 

I helped Dariel with his first POS. I think their POS on Gay Marriage and the growth of states accepting gay marriage is interesting although there wasn't anyone against it. 

Yesterday i helped take care of the flowers with John. I learned that you should give baby plants a

lot of water. They need a lot of caring just like a baby. MY new favorite flowers are marigolds.

"Give Every Man Thy Ear, But Few Thy Voice"

- William Shakespeare 

Hey What's Up!!!!

Hey I'm back in the NYC, and Im enjoying it. The weather is absolutely amazing down in Florida, O I saw Selly down in  Sea World Orlando. I loved it but i loved the pool more.  

O i finished my artical on the LGBT community. It should be posted in a few day but here is a little preview "I Christian Francis, I’m blackspaninezican (Black, Spanish, Native American,) and on top of being the United Nations I’m a bisexual man. I am an eighteen-year-old senior in High School. I have interviewed young adults and their many different views. I feel that many people don’t take the time, to truly see the LGBT youth or take the time to see that any youth in a community should all be treated with quall care, and concern. We gay youth are here and where tiered of having to prove it. We love like you love, and we bleed the same color you bleed. To be in a world where there are thousands of different ethnicities, but people in these communities forget that there is only one race (HUMAN). As one race where all one peoples; colors, shapes, sexuality and ect. I love all people, and that should be the common feeling amongst us as a people. If more communities stressed that view of tolerance maybe the world, community-by-community will become a better place. Maybe love is in the air; maybe hope is on the horizon? I’m the ultimate optimist. Maybe others can start heading in that direction or not, but I feel you will be the better for it." hope you love it.

My Journey Continues....

Riding a bike!!!!!! Learning is so much fun. Yes I know I am supposed to already know how to ride a bike but yea....Anyways Tyrell and I continued to search for stories. We came up with a plan to better help us which is calling a variety of people at home and in school discussing it among each other for feedback. We have a number for our next story which is at the Manhattan Mall. Our last numbers failed but we never gave up. It was kind of annoying since it wasn't working but hopefully this works out because we really want to do a story on either a museum or mall. Well, pray that our story hunting and bike lessons work out for next week. Peace!!!

My third hole...

I got my third hole before I came here. The guy gave me discount. It was supposed to be $10 for them together. $5 for the piercings and $5 for the earrings. I got them both for $6 together. I didn't have enough and he let me get it =). Anyways My was dress was supposed to be here tomoorow but it came today =), also I won't be HERE tomorrow. I got a spanish project and I am not trying to spend half the night doing it. Im helping people get stories and helping them with other things like point sheet and stuff. Ugh. I can't think......so...........

--Tammy Ram is over & out

Me Me Me Me ME!! LMAO

Well I chose my dress. Its different from the ones on the blog. Here it is. There was a different dress I wanted, but I just old myself this one was less and Its more princess-y. It aqua too =D. Anyways. I know what Im gonna do with my hair and whatever. My Godfather is paying for the stuff. I'm helping Charisma look for a prom dress. Projects Due. Ugh... One for spanish and next week for english. Im making Rice balls Onigiri, for the english project. Its a Japanese based food. I'll bring some in for you guys thursday or Friday. Anyways I can't think of anything right now, so later.

-Tammy Ram is over & out.

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TWO DAYS IN A ROW...IM ON THE ROLL

IM SO FREAKING BORED. ITS ONLY A LITTLE BIT OF PEOPLE HERE AND IM GOING CRAZY. IM TRYING TO WORK ON MY STORY THAT I DID THE INTERVIEW FOR LIKE LAST MONTH BUT SINCE I HAVEN'T BEEN HERE I HAVEN;T REALLY GOTTON A CHANCE TO WORK ON IT. IM HAVING LIKE ODEE WRITERS BLOCK. I DONT EVEN KNOW THE DIRECTION I WANT TO GO IN FOR THE STORY...URGGGGG. I DONT WANT TO GET SCREAMED AT FOR NOT DOING ANYTHING BUT OH MY GOSH I CANT CONCENTRATE  I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. SMH. I HAVE QUESTIONS AND ANSWERS BUT MY IDEAS FOR HOW I WANT TO APPROACH WRITING THE STORY ARE ALL OVER THE PLACE. SMH. NEXT TIME IM HERE THATS GOING TO BE MY MAIN OBJECTIVE: TO FINISH AND SEND OUT THIS STORY. I THINK I MIGHT COME BACK ON FRIDAY OR SOMETHING. I HAVE TO GET BACK ON MY GRIND AND BACK IN THER REPORTING WRITING STORIES MOOD. IVE BEEN GONE FOR THREE WEEKS FOR CRYING OUT LOUD. ITS MY FIRST WEEK BACK IMMA LITTLE RUSTY. SMH.

IDK BUT OTHER THAN THAT HARLEMLIVE IS OVER HERE GOING GREEN WITH ALL THESE DAMN PLANTS. NOT TO SAY THAT GOING GREEN IS A PROBLEM AND ALL BUT THAT MEANS THAT THERES GOING TO BE 100 MORE PLANTS TO WATER WHEN DOING CHORES SMH. I HATE PLANTS. I DONT HAVE A GREEN THUMB  AS SOME WOULD SAY. I DOT KNOW THE FIRST THING ABOUT TAKING CARE OF PLANTS. BUT WHATEVER AT LEAST THE PLANTS BRING SOME COLOR AND BRIGHTNESS TO HL.

IM HAPPY I FINALLY SEEN THAT PERSON I HEARD SO MUCH ABOUT LOL SMH. BUT I DONT THINK THEY SEEN ME BUT ITS WHATEVER. (INNY WITH TAMMY RAM)

NOW IMMA GO FIND SOME MORE POSSIBLE STORY IDEAS. HOPEFULLY I FIND SOME MORE INTERESTING ONES. SO FAR IM WORKING ON MY QUEENS SPY SHOP STORY AND NEXT IN LINE IS PREPARATIONS ON A STORY ABOUT AN UPCOMINING CLOTHING COMPANY.

Monday.

Monday.

today very few people came so i got kinda bored so, i made some popcorn. There's still some left. My grand Parents came from england last week, they've done loads already. I'm Tired but our other freinds from england are coming from england next week.

cya

Cody the 1lb Pup

This is my sisters dog Cody. He is a maltese and weighs only 1 lb! He is 3months old and is expected to stay pretty tiny.

Updates for this week...

Hay everybody..... I wanted to update you guys on some vital information this week.

5/19- Justice Matters Rally.... Troy Anthony Davis; a man has been incarcerated in Georgia for 18 years for a crime that he didn't commit. 7/9 witnesses have recanted their testimonies. There is no physical evidence, no murder weapon and another man implicated. For more information, contact: troyanthonydavis.org

** Please come out people** Anyone who wants to accompany me tomorrow, please email me at nyiesha.sho@gmail.com or find my contact info in staff info.

5/20-5/22 : GREAT WEATHER...... please dress appropriately!

Jacksonville Zoo

We did not get to see the whole Zoo, we went to the Zoo before having to turn in our car to kill some time and before we knew it we were almost late!
The best picture I took! Cheetah sleeping.


Giraffe


Elephant


Ostrich


Train to take you around the zoo. (Monorail is WAY better)


Giraffe Sanctuary thing.


Kangaroos


Trout River


More Giraffes

Savannah, Georgia

Me at the Lady and Sons Restaurant. It's Paula Deen's Restaurant. The food was a lil' pricey.....I had her buffet plate. Her Lasagna is to die for!!! So was her Mac n Cheese!!! And her fried chicken was mmm-mmm good! lol. I did not like the peach cobbler I regret not getting her ooey-gooey chocolate cake...yuuuuummi I wanna run to cold stones right now! lol



Some house in Savannah, GA



Sign pointing to Savannah.



Fountain in Savannah, Its a famous fountain, I just forgot the name.

hey everybodii I'm Sick but I'm here.

Well thursday we were out in a rush Shay, Branday, and John and I to do a story. We went over to the Hue-Man bookstore to listen and video tape Michael Eric Dyson talk about his most recent book "Can you hear me now". This was just a presentation of his book and an opportunity for people to ask him questions about this book and his ideas on other topics. The audience was riveting and very attentive. Whatever Michael threw at them they had a response or a question to ask, which he went wild with. Although, he went quite over the time limit in responses, you can tell this character of a man was very fluent in what he wrote about. But what got so intrigue was the way he presented his character, by reciting verses from Jay-Z to Tupac, Nas and Biggie. He was truly a fan indeed of hip hop and a very observe person for he new verses from authors alike as well as the from the Bible.

And now I'm just writing out the questions and answers about the event. This is also a video so I guess I will be doing a story or a Q&A.

SeaWorld

Ok, I want to share some pics from my trip. Hope you guys enjoy! It wasnt the best trip, I was a necessary break I needed from NYC (although I wouldnt trade living here for the WORLD!!!) When I arrived in Florida I found out that JetBlue shipped my luggage to BUFFALO!!!! So I went the whole first day without any of my stuff, then we had no TV, no internet, and it was raining the majority of the days. I went to the each one morning but started getting so sunburned I couldnt stay the whole time. These blog posts will highlight the good times I had. O and on our way back there were issues in JFK so we we parked on the runway for acouple of hours with the engines off and babies crying on board....Then we had to circle around New Jersey bc there was alot of traffic in JFK. Glad to be back and the Flowers look nice!

This is the entrance to SeaWorld...Where I bummped into Christian....We should've taken a pic together! lol

Shamu and baby at entrance....is it fake or real?

I thought the Flamingo looked so cool like this....

Stanley, you would LOVE Seaworld! We got to pet Sting Rays and we would have been able to feed them but we preffered to feed the dolphins. The Sting Rays were REALLY sliiiiimy yuck they were not pleasant to touch.

That is my momz hand feeding the dolphins. The Dolphins were awesome! They werent as disgusting as the Sting Rays.

Knock Knock..Who's There?

IT'S ME CHARISMA AND IM BACK ON THE SCENE :-)

HEY, LONG TIME LONG TIME.

I HOPE I WAS VERY MUCH MISSED AND NOT SO MUCH OF FORGOTTEN.

I FEEL LIKE I HAVEN'T BEEN TO HL IN LIKE AGES. SMH. IT'S BEEN LIKE CLOSE TO 3 WEEKS SMH. BUT ITS REALLY NOT MY FAULT. I WAS GOING THROUGH SOME VERY PERSONAL PROBLEMS AND I JUST NEEDED SOME TIME, DISTANCE, AND SPACE FROM EVERYBODY ELSE FROM HL TO THE OUTSIDE WORLD PERIOD. 

I HAD TO TAKE THESE NASTY AND HUMONGOUS PILLS THREE TIMES A DAY THAT I COULDN'T EVEN SWALLOW B/C UNFORTUNATELY I CANT SWALLOW PILLS :-( SMH. BUT ANYWAY HOPEFULLY I WONT HAVE TO TAKE ANYMORE...YIPEEEE CHEERS TO THAT. BUT YEAH I HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE DOCTOR SOON SO HOPEFULLY IM BETTER. :-)

OH YEAH AND FOR THOSE WHO DIDNT KNOW...IM NOW OFFICIALLY 18. IT FEELS SO GOOD. IDK I DONT REALLY FEEL A CHANGE BUT I GET ALL HYPE AND ALLL SMILEY AND STUFFIES ON THE INSIDE WHEN SOMEONE ASKS ME HOW OLD I AM AND I SAY 18. LMAO. MAYBE THATS JUST ME BUT O WELL. I HAD MAD FUN ON MY BIRTHDAY THOUGH AND MY OUTFIT WAS SLAMMING. 

Coming in for few Hours Monday

Was sorry for Luis having to deal with one of staff members mishaps and attitude but oh well.

Will come in Monday for few hours to help continue training new folks and ease Selly back into the groove. Hope she likes all the flowers.

today

Today i woke up late for school. I a lot of my teachers went on a junior trip to Six Flags Great Adventures. Last year i went but it was raining really hard and they had to close most of the rides. I wonder what kind of senior trip would the juniors have next year since mine is only a barbecue. 

Hear that Selly comes back to HL on Monday..Finally. Hope she enjoyed her vacation. 

 John bought cupcakes and it was really good. Except i hat frosting on anything that isn't chocolate but i enjoyed it.

right now i am about to go out on a POS in 59th street's columbus circle. This is my second time going there this week. Its really much better to go out into a new environment although i have been going to school downtown for a couple of years.

Swollen eye.

I have decide I AM going to prom. I know It will be great. I'm going to get a new dress. I want one with a lace up back, and poofs out in the skirt part. I know that was confusing but w/e. My mommy is paying for it... I have no idea what i am going to do with my hair. I want it short; no extentions or braids. I might color it and snip it a little. My mom has jewelry that I can wear. I was watching prom night the other night, and I had a dream that something like that might happen, just not as bad. Scary. I havent been asked yet, but oh well, I'll have fun with mis amigos. These two dresses are in CLOSE competion. Like omg. Tell me what you guys think. Enough with the prom stuff, I am going to talent show at my school, and I hope that is good. I regretted not going last year. I also am getting my third hole soon. You might see it tuesday =). My eye is swollen,I had something in it so when I got home , it had to lift up the eyelid, and there was some stuff in it, so now its swollen. It was twice as big as now. It hurs to lay on the side that eye is on(Left)... Anyways I am looking up more stories now, so laters.
--Tammy Ram is over & out.

Made it thru the week

Was an OK week. I feel we REALLY need more adult help to work with the teens. I also get discouraged when I think some teens are just here for their credits or pay and this is not really the program for them.

Be aggresive. Go after as many stories as you can.

The Walkway looks magical with all the pretty plants and flowers.

I hope Selly finds good people for the summer program.

John, my friend who's been visiting noticed something interesting. He didn't see that any of the teens have a real strong bond with each other... he thinks in this time of survivor and individual competition that not enuf bonding between individuals is happening.

We'll see how today godes it looks beautiful outside.

We fixed it up but last weekend, after we were still setting up where all the plants and flowers go, someone from the building used our walkway (again) as a trash receptical.