future meeeeee

idk im lost riite now cause im not even sure what i wanna be in liife anymore im stuck i use 2 have it all planed outr but now its liike the closer i get to my future tha more lost and confused i get about who n what i wanna be!!!!! before i use 2 want 2 be a singer soooo bad buhh little did i knw i couldn't singg then once i got to my new school i then relised i wanted 2 act i wnted to beh dramatic and be on stage!!!! but now its like i dnt knw what i wanna do in liife anymore!!! i dnt wanna beh on tv anymore cause i just wanna live a normal; liife likke i dnt wanna deal witha tabloidzz and ppl starting rumors n all other tyupes on nonsense liike i just dnt wanna even deal with it i want a good paying job that i love that doresnt involve tv.

AM Back!!!

Hellooo!!!!!!
am finally back.!!! i am super excited to finally be back to HL. Its been 2 months since the last time i was here. I came really excited expecting to see Selli, because i had a LONG time without seeing her, but unfortunately she was not here, but christian was here, and i was very excited to see him. Things at HL have changed a lot since i was last here. Everything now is very organized and i see that now everybody have a story to work on. Also Jason is not here, and there is a girl named Aisha who is now here helping the students.I am very excited because now am going to be doing office worked, and i soooo love paper work!!! so am excited to see how that goes.

Now am trying to get my life back together, because i did horrible last marking period in school. I had a 46.21%, which is terrible, because i was used to seeing 85 and above average on my report card. Now am doing soooo much better because i started to go to my 1st period class, and am not missing any of my classes, and i started to come to HL again, which is GREAT!!!

Can you trust em'

"baby i care for you".blahh blahh blah. That the first thing most girl believe when a guy tell them that. "baby your the only one I'm messing with" umm yeah right. High school guys are so into their self. They tell girls what they wanna hear, lie and spread thing that is not even true.

Well to start things off their this boy in my school, he was trying to talk to me since December. My friend told me not to even bother with him. But im the type of girl that wants to find out things out on her own. Everything started off good between us, he cooked for me, we chilled, he told his friend im his boo, he wanted me to meet his family and blah blah blah. Omg i thought that was soo cute. From the first time he got my number he called all the time, after a while the calls began to become less and less. I thought it was good between us, meaning that him & I never did nothing, he never brought the topic up, that was something different. A little more then two weeks ago the calls came to a stop. Word got out that him & i was dating. He's the type of person that doesn't like people in his business. I guess that's the reason he wanted to be friends.

This weekend I found out that he was wifey up, i found out that he told people he had sex with me. At the end of the day he lied on himself. So my ? is can you trust em', When little boys act like this. Would you trust em'

At HL, I was outside for like 15 mins before I got in these ridiculous boys outside like for real don't stop me I am not interested in talking to you. It's so dead in here today like I don't know we need more energy in here everyone is just like blahhhhh. We need to work some magic in here today. I am tired and still a little sick I don't know why because I should be feeling better by now. School was so much fun today, we was playing double dutch laugh out loud even though I can't jump rope for nothing but it was so funny because we was recording it and our gym teachers were jumping with us. We had a great time. College people coming back today can't wait wink wink lolss

A day is not just a day when i'm around

Today really sucked. One i'm hungery. Two, i have no money. Three im full of emotions that makes me depressed. Now i need my fasfa done no matter if my mom did it or not. This is crazy cuz work is not the same but nothing is the same anymore. I'm so tired it not even funny, guys are over here playing games and i dont have time for that. the only person i can say have been here for me while not actually being there is steven. No matter what people may say or think i dont care, i'm glad i'm talking to him and messing with him and being friends. Cuz if its not for him i dont know how i would surivive. On top of all of that my sister tried to kill herself, and this week is not going to be good i can see it. I have this huge scar on my forehead and i know its not going to go away for my birthday. So the rest of my three weeks are ruined. Great. FML.

BIG DAY FRIDAY!

This Friday is the big day for me! I'm a poet in case you didn't know and this friday I'm performing at the semifinals for the Annual Teen Poetry Slam. For years I been "feenin" to make it to Apollo Theatre. To be on stage in front of all those people make some ppl nervous, but that feeling I get when I'm performing sends me to on a high minus the plants. Performing makes me feel powerful....but more than that. I just can't find the words for it. WISH ME LUCK!

idk man

i dnt evven knw what i wanna do with my liife at this point liike i feel liike acting jusst isnt my callingg anymore!!!!!!!!! i use 2 beh just sooo passionate bout acting n now im not idk what 2 doo imm done

If I could talk to someone dead it would b....

I would loooove to meet and talk to Jimi Hendrix. He is one of the most creative souls that I have ever read about. His music is the epitome of free thought and his guitar playing is a whole another story. He is the reeeaal pioneer of Rock N' Roll. Noo one else has ever blessed the strings of a guitar like that man. So what if he experimented with drugs? That doesnt make him anyless of a genius. Just a misunderstood artist. If Jimi Hendrix was a feeling he would be the great feeling you have when you finally get to sneeze...yes

I Came back... From Ecuador!

So I went to Ecuador for two weeks. And it was a great trip! I loved it. I spent the time with my extended family because I have little family here in the US of A. The weather was beautiful just a constant 60 Degrees and the sun would always set at 6. It was never too hot or to cold. Ecuador is on the Equator so it is a magical place. I wanted to put a picture up but the bloggy thing is not letting me. The place I went to is Cuenca, a city located on the Andes Mountain range. It was full of hills valleys and barely any traffic laws. People went on their own speeds and performed unsignaled turns. The people spoke Spanish, its located in South America, and the food was fresh and wonderful! The place is beautiful because you notice the industrialization and modernization almost colliding with the natural beauty of the country. This opposite was something out of the ordinary and unique. The city features a colonial center that is wonderful with brick paved side walks and fresh market centers. Just by talking I miss it already and all my family. Well back to HL for now.

Rainbows & Butterflies

Today at HL is as usual, structed chaos. As the weather gets nicer procrastination sets in amongst the students. The stories for the upcoming newscast are sluggishly coming along.

Yesterday I was in the 24-hour computer lab at Pace's library for nearly all 24 hours. After leaving the lab at 5 AM with various incomplete assignments; I spent a couple hours chatting with a friend about the usual college student dilemmnas. Unintentially missing the Oscars, I guess my accidentally attempt to finish school work was a mini accomplishment.

Also over the weekend I attempted (again) to party with my friends after failing (again)we resulted to a dance session in the bathroom dorm mirrors. Next time I guess.

"Optimism is key" is the phase I live by. Although the unsuccessful endeavors were discouaging I am hopeful and I believe that the next day will be better than the last.

Todays news

At work now just had a good meal at jumbos and burger king with Amina. She fronting like she don't want to work here over the summer. News is young money CEO Lil Wayne is going to jail today. Many people are happy with this news many aren't; I really like young money I enjoy their music it's really good. Now that Lil Wayne might be in jail I ask myself how is young money going to do with out their CEO? Is everything going to be the same or are things going to change up a little? Is Lil Wayne going to mange his business while in the island or is he going to put into the hands of one of his young money rappers. I also wonder if they are going to be able to succeed without Lil wayne. Well I hope all is well with young money and Lil wayne because he surly is a great rapper and his business looks good for all the people out there that are truly good rappers. This business is not only bring many people together is giving a lot of opportunity to young rappers out here that find it enjoying and worthy for a living career. I believe this is a great cause he is doing regardless of things that he have done in the past, he is showing the world that no matter what happens in your life and no matter the mistakes you make you can always get better and do things to help others that needs it.

OMG

IDK Y BUT I FEEL LIIKE SOMTHINGG GOOD IZZ GOINGG 2 HAPPEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally Home

As of March 8,2010 my father will be coming home from a 9 year prson sentence. Im i excited-yes. Am i nervous-yes. I have mixed emotions because i know he is my father, but i don't know him. Hopefully i can relight an old flame and we can build a healthy relationship and a good one. Im SO HAPPY! and at the same time I know alot of bad will come out of this because that just how things are in life people hate,envy,jeolously i just hope nothing dramastic occurs. Ive been waiting so long for this too long if you ask me and i be damn if another excuse or situation will keep me from this.

Hey what is going on with everyone today. My day has been so crazy. all of this college and high school things are driving me up the wall. Filling all of this paper work is a lot of work. But it all will play off at the end of the day. Well ill write to e everyone soon.

Just one of those days

Well today was kind of interesting. Reesse sort of backed away from me now and im starting to worry. I'm not sure if i should come on more to him or back away more. I haven't talked to the love of my life and last night i ran into William at pathmark and boy was it chemistry. I don't know what else to say behind that. Like i like him and i at a lost. A love triangle is one thing but a love square is another. Plus our discussion today in health class was sought of a depressing one for me. So now i'm kind of down hope my spirits will change for later on tonight.

Just the regular day

Today was just a regular day but most of all it was a happy day. Reese and I have gotten closer and my classes are fine. I might have to fail this kid in my class because now he's lying to me about doing his work. So that really sucks. But now that things are looking up i know things are about to get bad. I dont know when but i have that feeling. It's just the way things work with me. I know it sucks. I have nothing else to say right now because things are going good.

School is tiring

Today at school, the funniest thing happened... My chem teacher was absent so we went to study hall. I played Chinese poker w/ some friends. we all won at least one game each. But thats not the funny thing. The funny thing that happened was i fell asleep in english class and had a dream about the book we were reading, A Tale of 2 Cities, and I was in the story talking to Jerry Cruncher and Sydney Carton. When I woke up, we were discussing Sydney Carton and I was able to go in depth about him, due to my dream.

Wrongs of Woodhull Hospital

Ok I have a story that is totally crazy. On Wednesday, Febuary 24, 2010, My mother was going into that hospital to have a check up. Where she had seen an elderly lady and decided to help her into a seat. Yet at the same time the nurse called my mothers name where my mom told her that she will be there in a moment when she finished helping the lady. Even though my mother told her serveral times that she will be right there, the nurse still had an additude and on top of that she was known for being rude. When my mother was finally able to get her check up the lady was waving papers in her face and yelling about her to another nurse. So my mother ended up choking her, then the nurse bit my mother and my mom just started punching her. Though my mother was the only one caught on camera hitting the nurse the nurse got off scotch free, wile my mom went to jail. Where they messed up her paper work causing her to stay long in jail. She finally got out Friday, Febuary 26,2010. Even though this woman is my mother doesn't mean I'm taking sides it's just how it went. Life really is unfair and it just happens it was my mother this time.

Snow Day

School has been so tiring. Thats why i'm glad about the past snow day on Friday. It was a way for me to catch up on sleeping and massive video game playing. Today, I'm back at HarlemLive and I hope to come up with good ideas for stories. The time i spend at HarlemLive I hope will be beneficial to me and all the other people here.

Blog#3

I'm finally back to HL after a week and i miss this place a lot. I'm glad to be back because i like being part of a creative group. i found out yesterday that i have a term paper in global history and it is all about creativity. The whole time I've been gone, I mostly was at home for school break, doing school work. I also had to stay after school to start my term paper for history yesterday. I'm thinking about combining several movie ideas involving time traveling.