FIRST I'M GOING TO START WITH THE GOOD NEWS AS OPPOSED TO THE OTHER SAD NEWS I HAVE. SMH. SO LET THE STORY BEGIN.
SO LETS START OFF WITH LIKE THE GOOD NEWS. LIKE OMG I'M SO LOVING S RIGHT NOW. YOU NEVER REALIZE HOW MUCH YOU TRULY AND DEEPLY APPRECIATE SOMEONE UNTIL SOMETHING HAPPENS AND THEY ARE THE ONLY ONES YOU WANT TO TALK TO AT THE TIME. SMH. THAT'S EXACTLY HOW I FELT YESTERDAY. THE ONLY PERSON I FELT THAT I NEEDED AND HAD TO TALK TO WAS S. LIKE I LOVE ALL YOU GUYS HERE AT HARLEMLIVE FOR THE MOST PART OR WHATEVER BUT IT WAS LIEK DEAD ASS JUST SO MANY PEOPLE HERE GOSH. SMH. LIKE I HAD SO MUCH SHIT GOING ON WITH ME FROM CRAMPS TO Y PROJECT TO EVERYTHING ELSE THAT JUST HASN'T BEEN WORKING OUT FOR ME SINCE LIKE SUNDAY BASICALLY OR WHATEVER. I REALLY DIDN'T WANT ALL THE PEOPLE HERE TO WORRY ABOUT ME SO I JUST GRABBED THE PHONE STEPPED OUTSIDE AND SPOKE TO THE ONLY PERSON I FELT COULD HELP ME AND THAT WAS S. YOU NEVER KNOW HOW YOU TRULY AND DEEPLY FEEL ABOUT SOMETHING THAT BOTHERS YOU UNTIL YOU TALK TO SOMEONE ABOUT AHHHH MAN! I FELT SO MUCH BETTER HEARING HIS VOICE THROUGH THE PHONE AND AND JUST BEING THERE FOR WHEN I NEEDED HIM THE MOST--DON'T YOU HATE WHEN YOU NEED TO TALK TO THAT ONE PERSON AND THEN YOU CAN'T GET IN CONTACT WITH THEM SMH I KNOW THAT ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME BUT BACK TO THE REGULAR STORY--WHEN I WAS TALKING TO HIM AND TELLING HIM ALL THIS STUFF I WAS FEELING I NEVER KNEW HOW BADLY IT AFFECTED ME AS A PERSON ON A PERSONALLY LEVEL UNTIL I FOUND MYSELF CRYING AND ACTUALLY TREMBLING LIKE I COULD BELIEVE IT MYSELF. JUST THINKING ABOUT IT AND STUFF IS STILL MESSING WITH MY HEAD I NEVER EXPERIENCED ANYTHING LIKE THAT BEFORE BUT I LEARNED FROM IT. THANK GOD FOR S AND THAT I HAVE HIM BECAUSE I DON'T THINK I WOULD OF GOTTON THROUGH WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH WITHOUT HIM. I SO APPRECIATE HIM AND I JUST WANTED TO LET THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD KNOW. BUT I THINK AFTER I SECRETLY CRIED AND LET EVERYTHING OUT AND SPOKE TO S THAT I WAS PERFECTLY FINE AND BACK TO MY NORMAL SELF. I JUST HAPPY I DIDN'T LET MY EMOTIONS GET THE BEST OF ME IN FRONT OF ALL YAL WHO WAS THERE YESTERDAY.
THINGS JUST KEEP AND KEPT GETTING WORST AND WORST. IT'S BAD ENOUGH THAT I WAS ON ONE OF THOSE EMOTIONAL ROLLERCOASTER YESTERDAY AND HAD THAT STUPID ASS PROJECT TO DO THAT WAS ODEE BLOWING MINE I WAS MAD HUNGRY I HAD CRAMPS MY BACK WAS HURTING AND ALL THAT AND THEN TO TOP IT OFF I FIND OUT LATER ON WHEN I WAS HOME THAT MY FREAKING GREAT GRANDMOTHER IS FEELING SICK AND HAD TO GO TO THE DOCTOR YESTERDAY AND THIS MORNING. MY MOTHER DIDN'T NECCESARILY TELL ME WHATS WRONG WITH HER OR WHATEVER BUT WHATEVER THE PROBLEM IS I HOPE SHE'S OKAY. IT'S LIKE EVERYTHING IS GOING WRONG ALL AROUND THE SAME TIME LIKE THIS COULD NEVER BE A GOOD SIGN WITH SO MUCH STUFF HAPPENING BACK TO BACK. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO URGGGGGGG I FEEL LIKE SCREAMING.
BUT I THINK I HAVE TO LEAVE EARLY TODAY LIKE I DONT KNOW WHAT'S EXACTLY WORNG WITH ME BUT I JUST BEEN SO TIRED LATELY AND EVEN WRITING THIS BLOG ON THE COUCH I CAN'T SEEM TO STAY FOCUS OR KEEP MY MIND OFF ALL THESE THOUGHTS OR EVEN STAY AWAKE OR ANYTHING. I'M OUT OF HERE.
PS: EVERYBODY COME TOMORROW I'M BRINGING MY DOGGY CHEWY!
THIS IS CHARISMA
AND I HAVE OFFICIALLY
BLOGGED OUT!
:-)
