Bitter Sweet

Friday had to be the the most nerve wrecking day of my whole time at HL. So it was the first time we had to report a 1pm but I arrived about 2 hours earlier to get more work done. Although I got a considerable amount done and anticipated my team's arrival. By 1pm, it seemed like everyone else's team was present but mine. Less than half of my team is present when Rich drops the bomb that team 4 no longer exists and that we're all getting new members. I didn't really want more members considering I liked my group the way it was. Then we get the list and I start to get annoyed because the person I asked to be dropped was still there and one of my favorite members was moved. After trying and failing to negotiate placements, I shuffled my "team" to a nearby library. We had to work on the presentation that was due in a few hours. While working on our presentation, my teammates had no inhibitions about letting me know that this presentation was going to suck. I didn't like that one bit because it showed our lack of confidence and faith in our team. We got back to HL and continued work on our presentation. Once the judges arrived and the presentations began, I got to see what our competition was about. It seems that both Rosa and Adam are really strong leaders and their teams like them. We went last and Matthew and I presented. I was nervous at first but i think i did a good job hiding it. I thought we did a decent job but when I asked my teammates how we did, the responses I got didn't really please me and I was convinced that some of the responses were fueled by jealousy and that disappointed me. I think I was more nervous for the judges critique than presenting. The other two teams critique were similar so I wondered what they thought of ours. Their critique was really positive and enlightening so I was hopeful that we might actually win. And guess what??? Yup yup...WE WON!!!!!! 500 beautiful points!!! But despite the win, I can't help but think about the improvements my team needs. That Friday taught me too much and we have a lot to work on...i think we need a meeting!